Had my first “date” with Elena last night. I’m so giddy when I think of her. It went well, we saw the 2nd transformers movie. It was good, what I saw of it. Honestly I was more interest in the beautiful girl sitting next to me. I was so nervous sitting next to her. This one really matters to me. It’s the first real date I’ve had since Jennifer.

Before the movie, I met her at the Tandori restaurant. I was worried she might just think we were friends, but when I saw the outfit she was wearing my heart jumped for joy. A pair of calf-length pants and a white & green floral top. Yes, that was definitely 1st date attire.

So we had a good meal. I didn’t order my usual Vindaloo –  I thought the prospect of breathing fire would not be goon on a 1st date.

She talked most of the time, which I didn’t mind. I just love to hear her voice. She’s much more traveled than I am, which is cool. She’s also a college grad, which is a bit intimidating with my “only some college” education. But she and I really seem to connect, which is why I asked her out.

Madeline is smelling me now, perhaps I give off some type of pheromone when I think about Elena.

Anyway, had a good meal and then went to the movie. I was a bit tricky & got my car parked first (the entrance we were originally at closed at 9:30) and purchased the movie tickets. She gave me a grin/dirty look, but I think she was amused.

Anyway, I was SO nervous during the movie… should I take her hand? Now? Now?

Finally, about 45 minutes in I just said the hell with it & reached out for her hand and held it.

She was so warm and soft. I thought I caught a small smile as I took her hand. Yay me! I couldn’t believe it was going so well.

But, alas, nervous Stephen and warm Elena hand makes for sweaty hands. I REALLY didn’t want to release her, but I figured a puddle would soon develop.

So I figured, what the hell again, and released her hand and with a simple “May I?” put my arm around her.

Ok, I was now a VERY happy Stephen. Not in THAT way, just happy to feel her on my arm.

The rest of the movie passed in a blur. To hell with the Autobots and Decepticons. My night could have ended there & I would have been content.

So, of course, good triumphed over evil and the movie ended. Awwww.

After the movie she went to the restroom & I waited for her. I could still smell her perfume/soap on my clothes, and it made me giddy like a school girl.

Yeah, I’ve got a bad crush on her, can you tell?

So she dropped me off at my car on the other side of the mall & said the words that I knew would be next.

“You are a really great guy, and I hate to be having this conversation with you, but I do have a girlfriend in New York.”

I was totally ok with it. Ok, maybe not totally, but I had expected it. We decided.. well, I offered that we could go out as friends the next time. I have to be careful of the dreaded “friend zone”.

I want to be more than friends with her, but if we only start out as friends I can understand. She did say that if she became single I would be the first one on her list.

It kinda sounds like a brush off, but I guess I’m gullible… I believe her.

So now I have a choice, do I try to wear her down & be a bastard to lure her away from her relationship.. or do I just be the best friend she could ever want?

I don’t think I could live with myself if I played the part of the bastard, but my heart goes thumpity-thump whenever I see her.

So I guess I’ve just be Steve & see what happens.

-S

P.S. –  Wow –  4 pages! You might think I like this girl or something.